Is this believable....

There are days I think if this wasn't me would I believe what someone else is telling me?  Would I believe that after 5 weeks of slowing down things don't look or feel that much different?  Would I believe that these fluctuating symptoms were real or chalk it up to.psychosomatic stress?

The  past week i have had new muscle and joint  myalgia...or aches.  I woke up stiff and sore like i had worked out...but I hadn't and the muscles were random.  One day hips and back of my shoulder,  then it was the back if my wrist, my back forearm and calves.  One night it kept me up all night and I took medicine so I could sleep.   The most bizarre was going to bed and my jaw/TMJ ached, tender to touch and felt swollen...by morning it was better.

My usual fatigue, random head aches continue.  My nausea was better but after a fairly low key day (yoga, nap and hot tub with a friend checking in)  my stomach was churny again.   This was yesterday.   I was mad and frustrated.  I had taken it easy because Tuesday is choir and I hadn't been last week. We have concerts coming up and I wanted to see if i could get though the whole program and decide what to do about concerts. I was upset because I can't workout like I want, i can't do things at home like I want...I want one thing for me...like it used to be

So I decided I would try and see.  I sat the whole time but got through the program.  My heart rate spiked at the beginning but with somew breath work and not singing  a few songs I was able ton
 regulate it some what.  I still left early and I am still skeptical what to do about the  concerts.  Sitting will.be a must.  We have 2 but around a busy weekend....do.the Friday evening one ?or the Sunday matinee after a late Saturday night....these are the choices I have to make so I don't crash..and even then I might crash ...who knows

Okay...back to sleep...hopefully getting this out helps

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